Love fucks with man's head

Fucking mind doesn't stop thinking about her. The more I determine, the more painful it gets. This bad ass question keeps playing countless loop in my head, shall I ping her myself or wait for her to ping me? I want to sound cool and at the same time want to sound caring as well. This fucking question in itself brings up another question. Is this beginning of another one sided attraction. I was already miserable and now this. Why God??? What kind of games are you playing with me. I guess that's how one has to deal with it. Just keep enduring the pain and hope to move on one fucking day.