Love fucks with man's head

Fucking mind doesn't stop thinking about her. The more I determine, the more painful it gets. This bad ass question keeps playing countless loop in my head, shall I ping her myself or wait for her to ping me? I want to sound cool and at the same time want to sound caring as well. This fucking question in itself brings up another question. Is this beginning of another one sided attraction. I was already miserable and now this. Why God??? What kind of games are you playing with me. I guess that's how one has to deal with it. Just keep enduring the pain and hope to move on one fucking day.

The storm has come
To crumble my world to the ground
Now im cutting myself off
I think i m really done with you?

And now....
Someday we'll see a better, stronger me...
Once I get away from you .

I don't care anymore if I let you down,
I believe that I need to be free,
I'm so used to my life with you around,
I don't know anymore....the real me...
And i thought i found my self today,
And I thought that I had control,
All the change in my life just fell away,
For a moment I didn't need you...

well i am not goin on right path, the path which i had chosen earlier....
the path which is full of good deeds.... the path which doesnot contain any frustration kinda things....

should not ask anybody to improve when i know that i am also at fault many times.... ahaaa.. not many times rather i should say most of the times....
if i will not see to my faults and try to improve then i dont have any right to ask anyone to improve....
come on man how could i forget this shit.......
ok now i gotta control my self....
i gotta stop these coldy wars weekning our relationship........
and this can only be done by submissiveness..... and yes one golden rule.....
dont behave like fuddus........ just be quick always and dont cry on illogical issues.... try to manage everything myself......

let her calm down and then treat her as a child and then tell her about the whole scenario........
yaar agar wo illogical hain to kya tune bhi aisi hi fuddu baatein karni hain???
na... and i know if i think and plan all this... iwont be able to work on it....
o GOD plzzz help me...........
i m surrounded by so much of shit.....

hows it??? ur girl friend saying that that guy has now gone for a week... how would i pass my week now.... i m goin to call and ask him to come soon... "main kaise rahungi uske bina"
no i dont feel much angry towards him..." uspe gusaa hi nahin aata, wo baat hi aise karta hai ki gussa, noway"

man that guy is great...
hats off to u man....

but koi na i am not goin to show any possessiveness this time....

i am coollll...

I dont know whether i am right or not... but yaar this is really killing...
Am i being over possessive ? some times i think no but sometimes may be...
But i should not react to all this... That would be no good... just calm yourself everytime... That person is not your private property... She is free to do anything she wants... I should love her as she is... i just get burned out when she gets herself involved so much emotionally with some other guy... man she cannot live without him and me too... how can some one other share my place...

(koi na bachu agar ek din maine aisa kiya na to pata chalega how does a burning heart feels...)

And sometimes its so bakwaas... ghatiya se illogical arguments... are girls made like this only... O god i should have known this before...

But can do nothing about it now... its better not to think much... and get going through... and if i m right then one day everything will set right...
Have faith... and just love her and not much pempering...

saala humein to kutta hi bana liya hai, khud jo marzi karein aur jab hum kuch karein to "look at the way you are talking", "tu pyaar se nahin bol sakta", "haan haan saari galti to meri hi hoti hai"....
Dont know when ll they start developing their brain like things...

ADDICTED

I think it was all because of addicted enrique.. watching his video and i don't know why it touched me a lot. just imagining abt me and her.. suddenly an immense feeling of love aroused in my heart and i just wanted to love her as much as i can. but in the grounds i cant do that because of some "khassi" restrictions. i just kept on capturing her throgh my eyes and thinking that i was in a bad mood she just treated me so sweetly, telling some stupid jokes and just like a sweet baby she was looking so sweet and i was enjoying those sweet moments, her hand over my hairs carresing them.. she was so muaaaah!!!! that i couldn't speak anything, just wanted to feel her.. but as the hour hand was approaching the 8'o clock mark, we had to leave.. and then the time came and i thought i should tell her wats in my mind on our favourite spot while loving her.. arms hung around and i was telling her abt that video and how i felt so intense emotion of love towards her, i had so much to say. i was just loving it.. but.......
she was just like 'its 8 we should leave' (although our watch is 4 or 5 min. ahead)
perhaps she couldn't understand my mood completely, i just wanted some words and a hand of comfort.. anyways it happens but that one was really a very much diff. from day to day. and that feeling was so rare.
but then i think one should not be so emotional although it gives us a very beautiful feeling, a very comfort feeling but at the same time as in this case it annoys u very much it gives u so much pain.
-But yaar its neither her mistake nor its mine but that was one situation..
-But then i think she should understand my feelings
I dont know but i know that i should go with "never mind, it happens". be happy and try to keep her happy..
as she is hearty soul..
I love u !!!
MUAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
urs truly
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